grace

i got a domestic helper at home now to cope with caleb, the hsehold chores and cooking.

in fact, i dont think i can do w/o her very much since i have to express my milk for caleb every 2 hourly.

my mil had a fall which resulted in a fractured spine a few mths bk and since then my dear spouse has arranged for the maid to visit my mil twice a wk to clean her house. my mil is partially blind.

2 hourly in the evening twice a wk doesnt really sound a BIG deal. however, i get ex irritated when i have to express my milk and caleb kicks a BIG fuss during that time. afterall, my mother who suffered a stroke cannot really help much.

i do not mind the maid gg over to assist my mil previously even when i was pregnant but now i feel very handicap. i wonder if things will change for the beta or worse after i start wk. i can imagine the scenario whereby when i stepped home at 7pm after a long bus journey and b4 i can eat my dinner in peace, my maid has to step out of the hse to attend to my mil's house.

the thought of that really pisses me off BIG time. it will be even worse if caleb doesnt sleep when the time i get off and b4 i can express my milk for him.

i wonder if it is the lack of grace on my end?

though a small and trival matter.. it has certainly been bugging me for the longest time ever...