We love because He first loved us

i used to be a person who is short fused and extremely hot tempered. There are times whereby i will scream and throw my tantrums at my family over a very trival matter.

i used to hate any foe very deeply to the extend that i dont ever want to see that person ever agin in my life.

these days, i have mellowed down. I guess when you read into His words, you gain enlightment. I learnt not to hate or detest. If Jesus can love me despite me being so sinful, so detestable and so rebellious, i dont see who gave me the right to judge or hate a person.

just yesterday evening, while i was bz preparing dinner for my family, my mom picked up the phone which is ringing and passed it over to me.

i was pissed, imagine both my hands which are oily and dirty and the hassle of washing and drying them b4 i can answer the call. Further, the call was from a housing agent enquiring on my flat which has already been rented out more than 2 months ago.

however, when i rushed over to pick up the call, not knowing wat came over me, i rem Jesus. He died for us even though we are not even worthy of His love. A sense of awesome peace diminished my anger. I even managed a courteous reply to that indian sounding agent over the line telling him that the falt has been rented out. He politely informed me that this is pretty common as my advertisement has been placed in the internet even though it has been rented out.

I was amazed at myself. I could have screamed at him and continue to feel irritated and angry but i didnt. This agent did nothing wrong except calling ppl like me for his livelihood. Who gave me the right to scream or be nasty to him? i felt ashamed of myself. If i were to put myself in his shoes, fancy working on a sun evening??

Fortunately, the Lord calmed me down at the 11th hour. Praise the Lord!!! all glories to Him only!!!