church goers

i attend a local church every sun.

last week, this lady whom i dont particularly know v well came up to me and spoke to me as if she knew me for ages. i was a bit uncomfortable with her sudden concern for me. i remembered that i spoke to her for no more than 3 times previously. her sudden outburst of over friendliness startled me. i left after a few words with her.

it is heartwarming to learnt that you are being remembered and concerned over. however, the concern that was being showered over me made me v uneasy. somehow or rather, i get the feeling that its pretendcious. after this, i did some self reflection. the reason i felt so uneasy during that conversation with that lady was cos i knew that she didnt approach me with a genuine attitude.

from this, i wanna ensure that i do not treat others the same way as i was being treated. i wanna ppl ard me to feel my warmth if i do really care for them. and unfortunately, for the unlovables, i do not wanna appear to be a hyprocrate and ostentatious towards them.

as one of the commandments given by God, love thy neighbours. i find that this is the toughest to achieve. how can anyone love someone who is unloveable? i m still trying to figure things out...