clearing my emotions

i kinda cleared my office table today of ALL my personal stuff. nono.. i didnt tender nor do i have intention to leave in the next 3 months. I am expecting Caleb to see daylight in May.

bk to clearing of my desk. tinking bk, i used to have deep attachment of my desk... (it took me 3 BIG boxes) to fill and carry home when i left my ex office.

i love to see familiar stuff on my desk.. esp when i feel stressed up during work. However, my spirit told me to let go... ALL... no longer do i wanna feel home at wk.. cos wk is definately NOT home.

no longer do i wanna feel cosy at wk.. no longer do i wanna stay even any second longer after office hrs.

why? the question is y? i know the answer.. deep down inside my heart.. the answer pops out loud and clearm

cos ppl here are ostentatious. deep down within my heart, i feel sad... and dishearted. Is that part of God's plan that ppl's heart get revealed over wk to me? i dunno.. really.. no idea.

well, m looking forward to my maternity leave from May to August. i wanna spend quality time with mama and caleb at home. After August, i take God's direction for me in my career... to continue in this ostentatious environment or proceed forward to somewhere.