how to forgive and let go

i dont exactly have an excellent r/s with my mil. in actual, the moment she opens her mouth, nothing really gd comes out of it.

well, i have been married for the last 3 yrs... thank God that i dont have to stay with her under the same roof. life hasnt been ez.. really.. there were times when my bp really went up even after having breakfast with her.

after i was saved and i learnt abt God's word, oh man, i really tried to love her. But... everytime she passes a hostile remark, i wanna compose myself and not lose my top. Praise be to God, there are times where i actually forgave her and loved her.

however, i m not born sin free. i got angry, pissed and v disappointed with her at times too. God forgave me and redeemed me from my sins though i was very defiant, rebellious and hated Him.

am i in a position to judge others in my capacity then? m i supposed to hold my peace towards my mil then? am i supposed to be under the claws of her negative remarks then?

love.. this is indeed a v tough 4 ltr word. i wonder how i will be able to love her one day with all my heart and take all her remarks in my stride.

Lord, i cast the flaws in my character onto You. may You grant me peace of mind in my heart so that even words which are negative will be a positive strength for me. Father, forgive me in my areas which i m unable to forgive. Grant me that mercy of Yours so that i can behave like Jesus. a forgiving woman.

Lord, let me apply the lessons from Daniel that i be quick to listen even during adversity and slow to anger. Father, let the word anger never come near me. thank You for loving me who is so unworthy of Your love. Amen