Rose leaves, when the rose is dead

Rose leaves, when the rose is dead,
Are heaped for the beloved's bed,
And so thy thoughts, when thou art gone,
Love itself shall slumber on.
Percy Shelley


my uncle who was suffering from pancreas cancer passed away last Sat. the last time i saw him alive was 2 sats ago when he was first admitted to hospital. well, he looked skeletal and evident that he lsot a huge part of his body mass :(

my auntie took it very hard and their only son, my cousin is of cos dead worried abt his mom. When i saw my auntie crying during the funeral, my heart shattered. My uncle used to follow my auntie where ever she goes. They share a very close r/s.

i tot to myself if my spouse were to leave me some day and how i would react to the same. i didnt dare to ponder further on that.

life and death... they are all part of God's plan for us whether we like it a not. Thus, i wanna make the most out of my life to glorify God. I wanna perform the best in my work, be a filial daughter, a supportive wife and a mother whom Caleb will look up to. It is easy to say but difficult to perform.

Father, bestow in me Your strength. I pray that i will be able to live up to Your name and that i will be a good disciple of yours. Amen