trust

i discovered the real nasty side of my next door colleague a few days ago.

she is x pissed off with me for over something which she has assumed BUT i did not committ.

well, she got it all wrong and her attitude towards me of cos changed for the worst. i could hear whispers amd her slamming of files from my cubicle. it did not help even when i tried to clarify.

in the end, i adopted my usual by leaving her to her woes. i was heartbroken for a while cos i alwaes considered her to be a fren whom i tried to stand by in times of needs. however, her recent display of her attitude and character made me look at her in a diff light altogther. i grief over this loss.

i dont blame her for how she has reacted. If i wasnt saved by grace, i would have become her the 2nd. thank God for this! praise the Lord for His grace and mercy in me.

it was this incident that made me discover the true essence of one's attitude.

church goers

i attend a local church every sun.

last week, this lady whom i dont particularly know v well came up to me and spoke to me as if she knew me for ages. i was a bit uncomfortable with her sudden concern for me. i remembered that i spoke to her for no more than 3 times previously. her sudden outburst of over friendliness startled me. i left after a few words with her.

it is heartwarming to learnt that you are being remembered and concerned over. however, the concern that was being showered over me made me v uneasy. somehow or rather, i get the feeling that its pretendcious. after this, i did some self reflection. the reason i felt so uneasy during that conversation with that lady was cos i knew that she didnt approach me with a genuine attitude.

from this, i wanna ensure that i do not treat others the same way as i was being treated. i wanna ppl ard me to feel my warmth if i do really care for them. and unfortunately, for the unlovables, i do not wanna appear to be a hyprocrate and ostentatious towards them.

as one of the commandments given by God, love thy neighbours. i find that this is the toughest to achieve. how can anyone love someone who is unloveable? i m still trying to figure things out...

caleb is 10 weeks old!!!

its been some time since i last posted abt caleb here.he has grown even bigger now!!! obviously, i mean, which bb doesnt grow?

i will be returning to a dreaded place next wk and will not be able to keep my lil darling co.. these few weeks with him has indeed cutivated my patience and selfless love.

its been so wonderful to watch him grow. he is 10 weeks old now and i just cant believe that my pregnany and delivery was over.

and now that all is over with the birth of caleb, i realised that parenthood is tons tougher than having him in my tummy. however, it is also rewarding to see him learning as days go by.