Proverbs

i am currently on the book of Proverbs with my darling.

i m especially touched by Pro 1:8-19

Warning Against Enticement

Listen, my son, to your father's instruction and do not forsake your mother's teaching.
They will be a garland to grace your head and a chain to adorn your neck.

My son, if sinners entice you, do not give in to them.

If they say, "Come along with us; let's lie in wait for someone's blood,
let's waylay some harmless soul;

let's swallow them alive, like the grave, and whole, like those who go down to the pit;

we will get all sorts of valuable things and fill our houses with plunder;

throw in your lot with us, and we will share a common purse"-

my son, do not go along with them, do not set foot on their paths;

for their feet rush into sin, they are swift to shed blood.

How useless to spread a net in full view of all the birds!

These men lie in wait for their own blood; they waylay only themselves!

Such is the end of all who go after ill-gotten gain; it takes away the lives of those who get it.

it is so ez to fall into the hands of satan. we envy and we wish for material riches which stands out to us as an attractive chip in our life. as such, we tend to fall short of God's glory and disappoint our heavenly Father. I

i have seen unscrupulous person make $$$ without even battling an eyelid. It makes me wonder how they can pass their conscience and spend the kind of $$$.

i am waiting to explore more on Proverbs and expound on the same.

walking in the path of God

it has been 2 weeks since i last wrote anything.... well... life is the same.... full of ups and downs..

Praise be to God that He allowed me to walk thru thick and thin with them. I read in the daily wisdom about "lighting strikes".

i been struck by lighting b4. Not the real lighting of cos... thank God. However, it is also during adversity that i learnt to cling on to the Word of God and claimed His promises.

i wonder where and what i will be doing without God in my life for this last 2 years. Life is definately not ez... in fact, it is even tougher to be a follower of God.

it is important to have fellow bros and sisters in Christ to motivate and lift you up in your adversity. i give thanks to God that He has given me the same. i hope that i can be the gentle glow of light too for the ones who need them.

Caleb is definately seeing the day light soon. i m relying on His promise for a painless and smooth delivery. I am also depending on His word that i can raise a godly and sensible child.

as for my work, the vol has been getting lower... praise be to God. He understands my stress level. However, the colleagues are still the same.. some ostentatious and others simply "screwed up". Nonetheless, it is His grace which has kept me here now. I wonder if He will lead me anywhere after i return from my maternity.

Psalm 23
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,

He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Glory be to God

Hallelujah! Glory be to God.. my auntie accepted Christ yesterday.

I was so happy and touched. She was really open. Both my cousin and me brought her to church yesterday. She was the one who intitiated coming to know Christ and even accepted the Lord as her personal Saviour.

my uncle's death has given her a great blow. They were such an affectionate couple. My uncle would follow my auntie to any places which she desires.

Now, the next project is to wk on my cousin. He doesnt seem very keen except that he sent my auntie to church yesterday before leaving to settle some matters.

when i heard the pastor taking my auntie thru the sinners' pray, i teared. Deep inside me, i knew that this was the work of the HS.

i pray that the Lord can lift my auntie's spirit and give her the peace of mind which she needs all these while.

servanthood

i was reading yesterday's daily bread and the same really reflected onto me about my situation some time bk.

True Sacrifice
Teenagers amaze me. So many of them love life with grand passion and face it with unrelenting optimism. Sometimes, they demonstrate the Christian life in ways adults can only hope to emulate.

Such is the case with Carissa, a teen who loves soccer, basketball, friends, family and jesus. In 2000, her mohter was diagnosed with cancer. Carissa was just 12 years old but she began helping to care for her mom.

During the next few years, Carissa often fed her mom, dressed her and helped her do anything she couldnt do for herself. "it was so hard to learn". she said, "Can you imagine, a mother, and daughter literally changing roles? i truely learned how to be a humble servant.

Sometimes, while her friends were out having fun, Carissa was helping her dad to take care of her mom. She continued to do so until the summer 2004 when Carissa and her family said goodbye to Mom for the last time. As Carisa puts it, "God took her home and made her perfect".

quoted from RCB's daily bread 16 March 2006

This indeed brought out what i hav felt when my mom suffered a stroke in year 2004. I was totally shattered and torn apart. My mom used to be the housewife of the family. I didnt know that there be no hot water to make even a glass of milo without her. i miss dinner being laid on the table when i returned from wk. Instead, i had to be running to the market, bathing her and doing tasks for her which she cant fulfil now.

truely, it is a changing of roles for me and my mama. However, via all these, i knew that it was the LOVE i had for my mama when i did all these for all. It was also her LOVE for me previsouly when she changed my nappies and all.

Praise the Lord for waking me up from my dreams... i wanna be able to serve Him just like how i serve me mama.

anticipation

in another 2 months time, i get to see Caleb face to face.

i rem that last time round i anticipated excitement was for my wedding 2 years ago. At that time, i was under tremendous stress that i lost weight. Now, it seems the other way round. I have gained 11 kg so far. i have to run to the ladies so often now.. and any "ah choooos" will cause my urine to leak ;P

well, i guess its all well worth... i m so eager to see Caleb. I wonder if which part of his facial features will resemble me or Rich.. hehe...

havent been able to get a complete sleep these days too. kept waking up in the middle of the night but m too lazy to drag myself up to empty my bladder though.

My faith has been a very crucial part of my pregnancy. i take this pregnancy as a gift and a test from God. He has answered our prayers for a bb and has been extremly kind and merciful towards my body.

praise Him for his kindness, grace and love. Everytime when fear gripped the hold of me, my Father was there... with me through it all.

i pray that Caleb will live up to his name in seeking the kingdom of God.

the song which touched my heart

So you would come

Before the world began
You were on his mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing you have done
Could make him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

Rose leaves, when the rose is dead

Rose leaves, when the rose is dead,
Are heaped for the beloved's bed,
And so thy thoughts, when thou art gone,
Love itself shall slumber on.
Percy Shelley


my uncle who was suffering from pancreas cancer passed away last Sat. the last time i saw him alive was 2 sats ago when he was first admitted to hospital. well, he looked skeletal and evident that he lsot a huge part of his body mass :(

my auntie took it very hard and their only son, my cousin is of cos dead worried abt his mom. When i saw my auntie crying during the funeral, my heart shattered. My uncle used to follow my auntie where ever she goes. They share a very close r/s.

i tot to myself if my spouse were to leave me some day and how i would react to the same. i didnt dare to ponder further on that.

life and death... they are all part of God's plan for us whether we like it a not. Thus, i wanna make the most out of my life to glorify God. I wanna perform the best in my work, be a filial daughter, a supportive wife and a mother whom Caleb will look up to. It is easy to say but difficult to perform.

Father, bestow in me Your strength. I pray that i will be able to live up to Your name and that i will be a good disciple of yours. Amen