Caleb has grown!

my lil one has grow. i dont think i ever have the right word to describe how i feel.

he smiles, throws tantrums, sleep, drink. My lil doll fits into those tiny lil shirts and diapers. i love to see the way he sleeps with both fists over this face.

i love him even though he cries and wails. I love the way he is being constructed and i than God for him in my life.

the feeling is so diff from having hammy. hammy cant interact with me but caleb can.

i give You my heart

my heart feels heavy and burdened.

work is siffening and unenjoyable. I dont know if i should continue to drain myself out in this manner. At home, the rainbow is slowly disappearing. Lord, unless You show me the way and give me Your strength, i m weary and dishearened. I am sure it hurts your heart to see Your child in a state like this.

I am giving it all up. I m just too heartbroken. The ones whom i love and have loved, do they understand? They DONT at all. HOw could they?

Lord, i m coming to You. Tired and weary, burdened and disappointed. You said You will give me rest and i stand firm by Your Word.

i wanna get out

i wanna get out of my job.. i cant wait to hand in the white pc of paper in a sealed envelope.

I cant wait to get my sight off the unloveable ones here... and i assumed for the longest time, God did not hear me. I am sure He is fully aware of what had gone on in my life and i have tried my best to live a life which reflects Christ.

i was even getting impatient and prepared to resign to where i m now.

BUT then, praises to Him. He heard me!!! hehe.. i felt like a school gal being given a lollipop yesterday when i got a call from he knows where. YEH!!! HOrray.. haha... i was so excited..

but then, given so many failures previously, i m also not too sure of any chances... BUT i shall face my future with a triumph spirit!