He is to be called Caleb

i went for my detailed scan yesterday.

Well, he is Caleb. We saw the dick hanging out there... its so looong *blushing*.

Hehe, my darling is Caleb. He is right, i didnt really trust myself when i heard my bb telling me tat hes a boy ;P

God, i pray that baby Jesus will hold my bb's hand and keep him company till my delivery in May nexy year. Lord, i pray that You wil bless Caleb with the best of health and that he will be a very special and happy bb. Thank you for your blessing and we know that we are rich in whatever we have now :) Thank you Father!!!

i always wanted a bb gal so i can doll her up and she can be close to me. However, now that i know that he is Caleb, i m overthrilled too. When i saw bb sucking his fingers and playing with his toes yesterday, my tears almost slided off my face. It was a very touching sight. I guess seeing Caleb is the motivation of my monthly visit to the gynae.

Caleb kicks these days.. though he is a not big bb, his kick is full of force. This mrg, i was having my breakfast when i felt him doing his karate chop in my tummy. Hehehe.. my hus is dead jealous ;P too bad la, i m the mommy ma.

Lord, i further pray that Caleb will be filled with the Holy Spirit and his passion for You when he arrives on earth will be as strong as his kick and his lvoe for u for be even deeper.

Caleb, God, daddy and mommy LOVES u!!!

smoking in the office

i have a boss who entertains his clients by smoking in the office.

i really HATE & DESTEST smokers who are inconsiderate. I mean, it is a personal choice to smoke BUT do not inconvenience others by smoking and polluting the air in an air-con office.

The other issue i have is that, smoking is a health hazard. Not only does it bring harm upon the smokers themselves, it brings even more harm for passive smokers.

really, why cant they just smoke at the carpark or the open air? is smoking in an air-con place really so relaxing and relieving? Then so, how about the OTHERS who are taking in their passive smoke???

I wonder if the BIG shot smokers here ever use their brains? well, personally, i dont think they do cos only i strongly believe only ppl with LOW INTELLIGENCE cannot comprehend. Ppl like with me an average IQ should have some common sense.

Thus, is my kind and beloved office going to pay for my future medical fees should i suffer from any passive smoker illness later on in my life? they are definately NOT going to.. i m so pissed.

How can BIG shots have NO brains? or have they left theirs at home?

i dont mean to be crude or rude but this has been going on for a while. Thus, should i burn away all my P&C documents in the office then? and then activate the smoke alarm to give those BIG shots a good time with the water?

God, please help... May your mercy and grace fill those BIG shots and that they can be the least considerate.

baptism

i just got baptised last sat, 17th December 2005 together with my hus.

God is great and i am honoured and feel great that i m took a step for an outward expression of an inward change.

Of cos, i am not an angel. But at the very last, i try to treat all ppl with a genunie heart and those whom i really dislike with a heart with no resentment.

I waited a year for my baptism and during this last 12 months, my spiritual journey has been filled with ups and downs. i thank God for where and what i m today. I thank Him for His grace and Jesus to even save me b4 i was brought onto earth.

I pray that all fellow believers in Christ will take a step for an outward expression of an inward change.

Faith

Faith is NOT a feeling, faith is an object. Faith is equivalent to RISK.

What is faith based on?
1. promise
2. it it spersonal
3. it requires preparation

What is the opposite of faith?
presumption

When God is speaking to you, how do you express your faith?
By obeying His commandments

When God is silent, how do you display your faith then?
By trusting God.

This was the sermon given yesterday by Dr Geoff Gorsuch on Hebrews 11:1-6.

I am at this juncture of my life whereby my faith is being tested.

Xmas and CNY are ard the corner and funds are running real low. I have been faithfully tithing for the last 4 months of 1/10 of my harvest.

having been contesting if i should drop my tithe and/or reduce it to utilise my funds more effectively. This has been bugging for almost a whole month now.

After the sermon yesterday and digesting it last evening, i asked myself where my faith is? or rather do i have any to being with.

God is the provider of ALL. Luke 12:22:34 sets my mind and heart at ease.

I have come to a decision. Praise the Lord!

The Power of His Love

i was on the bus this mrg, having rushed out from my hse, feeling breathless after ensuring that i managed to get on the bus before the heavy downpour.

my MP3 player's LED screen has been down since Wednesday. I prayed over it, (hehe) but of cos, my faith didnt managed to get it repaired in a split second.

this mrg in my rush, i couldnt plug in till i got on and rested on the bus. To my amazement, when i switched on the "play" button, i saw that the words have returned to the LED screen. i was like....???? i didnt even send it for repairs. I was even prepared to live with its disability since i know my buttons and songs very well.

The first song which was reflected on the LED screen was "The power of Your love". I couldnt resist but proceeded on with that song. Normally, i only tune in to the radio stations in the mrg.

i teared and felt deeply touched by the Lord, our Father. He seems to tell me that He hasnt forgotten me all these while. His love and peace came upon me and bb. BB must be sleeping peacefully inside my womb this rainy mrg.

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I've found in You
And Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

CHORUS:
Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
And rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me
And Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the power of Your love

ppl who are lost

i got a fren or rather colleague who is feeling miserable recently.

well, heard her and i felt really sorry for her.she is a lost sheep. Lost her faith and direction in life momentarily.

The last time i felt that, i almost committed suicide. Thank God, He told me that He loved me first. Praise the Lord!!!

she had dinner with her bf and one of his frens last nite and heard a comment fr his fren. The guy told her apparently that men prefer women who play hard to get. she shocked and puzzled why he told her this.

i believe that besides love and committement, its take MORE for a couple to stayhappily together. It is crucial to be able to forsee a future with your loved one at the moment before wedding bells can be rang. I dont believe in wasting time on a partner who has a different belief and a lifesytle.

it is indeed miserable for a person who is faithfully waiting for her partner to change into the one whom she wants. my suggestion to her was to get a firm stand and move on with her life instead of wasting it away with a partner who will lead her nowhere.

its up to her.. unless she makes a decision, she will continue to stay miserable

tummy getting BIGGER

bb is growing.. so is mommy.. i cant fit into my office skirts with zip now nor can i wear my normal short tees anymore.

my tummy seems to be ballooning at a rapid pace this mth. My last 3 mths was so eventless. Noone can ever tell that i m carrying my bb BUT now i look so ugly with a BIG FAT tummy :(

seriously, i dun know if its a happy or sad thing. It happy to carry your own child but my figure is really gone. Thank God that the other parts of my body has not ballooned yet :)

i just pray that the bb (fats) in my hus tummy will be delivered soon ;P

how to work happily & stress free

i went over and tot of wat i wanted at my work last evening.

am i looking forward to bonus or increament? yeap, of cos but it wouldnt really matte also if my work and working hours are satisfactory.

i work from 9am to 6pm and i must admit that i do take a few mins off now and there to "relax".

i have also come to a conclusion that there is no reason why my boss should demarcate my work and why i should help the others to clear their shit, even for making coffee or tea. All for a very simpme reason, i m PAID to do that!!!

Sad but true, since i m paid from 9am to 6pm to do work for the co, y m i complaining??? am i behaving like a witch or a nagging old hag? i dont want to be either.. i want to feel happy when i work even though ppl might be difficult to deal with.

I am working for 2 very simple reasons. Firstly, for survival sake and lastly for the glory of God.

i hope that when the time comes for me to be in the kingdom, God will remove all traces of bitterness or hatred or dislikes i have against anor being on earth. COs i want to feel happy being with the Lord in Heaven.

i started working at a mere age of 12 by being a shop keeper in my auntie's confectionary. Subseqeuntly, i was a cashier and even a baker. Thus, i can say that my walk has been enriched with the ppl from all different walks of life. I am deeply touched when ppl of a lower privilage showed more compassion to rich pl that i have known.

if that is the case, now being saved by the grace of God, shouldnt i be more graceful towards fellow beings on earth?

thus, Lord, i confess my quick temperness and i know that by your grace and mercy, i have been forgiven. Oh Lord, pls help instill in me a sense of peace and grace that i may extend my grace to those who needed it.

Let me be more Christ like and be a person who is a warm and glowing light to guiding ppl ard me to Your kingdom.

Amen